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officially official Despite all negativity in the previous post, I couldn't have had a more perfect Christmas/Birthday than this. Christmas Eve in carson, Christmas day in hesperia; all family. It was nice to see all the kids getting along & better to see all the adults conversing & laughing it up. I'm thankful for entirely everything that happened that night. Thanks for inviting my family over & welcoming us all the way you did. & After the talk we had last night, I promise to do my best. Thank you for giving me this opportunity. idiots Let's face it, you're all the same & there's no comparing you; end of story.
//EDIT: I was mad when I wrote this, all better now though! carelessness so i finally decided to learn how blogdrive works. i definitely love the fact that everything is fully customizable, hence the new layout. an honest flaw of mine? that i don't like to get things off my chest. i like to let things sit, add on, and stir till i'm heated enough to not give a fukc anymore. a pet peeve of mine? seeing things i shouldn't see or seeing things that shouldn't be around any more. if you choose secrecy make sure you don't get careless. an odd talent of mine? i have a way with finding things out whether i want to or not, things just happen to come to me. especially things that tend to prove my theories right. it's a shame really. i'm exhausted! lately i haven't made a real entry in such a long time, well i did but it got erased because safari on the iphone straight up fails -- it refreshes too often. vsah's graduation was just this past friday. it's a shame on my part that i couldn't graduate with my class though but i'll make it there one day. just a few setbacks. we spoke about that too, the fact that lately nothing has gone according to "our" plan. all throughout high school we mapped out our lives & set difficult goals for us to meet for the next five years or so. although a bit of everything has changed since, it's all just another reason to work harder to meet those goals & of course, nothing ever goes according to plan. i've been having the strangest dreams lately. three days in a row? i'm pretty sure it's what they call vivid dreams. the first night's was sad, the other night's was strange, and last night's was such a happy one. i dreamed that you were a boy & once you were handed over to your father you smiled and kissed him on the cheek. it was a bit odd that you did that but hey, you were the cutest little thing ever. i dreamed about a girl as well but that dream didn't finish. i wonder what it could mean... curiosity? anxiousness? the next few months/years for us will be quite life-changing. i know we didn't expect this either but it'll all be worth it. did i ever tell you what a great parent you'd make? i say that because i know you're aware of all the things that are necessary while growing up, being there for them, etc. i know you'll work just as hard to give them all that they need & deserve, plus more. as long as we're in this together, nothing can get in our way. <3 i tend to get so cheesy when i talk about you don't i? followme |